Soooo... it's August already, dontcha know! And that means Summer is almost over.
Grrr... *bangs head on desk repeatedly*... this Summer was an arduous and boring one. I *was* actually a good deal more active than I was past summers, and I biked and swam more than I usually do. This is also the Summer where I started learning to drive, which is incredibly fun.
On the other hand, there are a lot of things I vowed to do I later on didn't.
I haven't gone to the beach.
I haven't attended FearCon.
I haven't got that comic published that I wanted. I never even STARTED filming the vlog.
I didn't even get back to working on my blogs or audio dramas.
I did do some voice acting over the summer, and I did have outdoors fun, but for the most part it was not.
For some reason, on July 20th or something like that, I suddenly had an existential crisis where I just went, "OH FUCKING SHIT" about my mortality. I'm only 16, I shouldn't be having those just yet. But I've been having it off and on, and anything I tried to enjoy only reminded me that eventually I would never be able to enjoy those things again. It got so bad that I resorted to watching My Little Pony so the sickening bright pastel colors could wipe the depression (on that note, My Little Pony is actually a rather decent show with intriguing, interesting characters and a fairly fun magical utopian environment, with the odd complex story thrown into the Blues Clues morals- still, SO FUCKING PASTEL MY EYES). And then the Pinkie one sang a song about making people "Smile, smile, smile" and for some reason that depressed me even more.
However, after that I realized that voice acting was not just a hobby, nor was acting in general. I can't find solace in numbers or science, no matter how proficient I am with them. I've always been interested in the English language, but writing was always ever only a means to vent. I never cared too much about writing, and I usually have occasional flashes of inspiration followed by a month or so (let's say... all of July... :T) of absolutely nothing in particular. I've always wanted to be an actor, or a voice actor, or SOMETHING along those lines. And since I found my purpose, especially since it's a job so fun and so varied my comparably short lifespan will seem to last forever in my mind.
SO. Ontological and Jordan Eats Normally Now reviews are both finished, but I need to release them in increments. I need to talk to my comic artist Marinda about maybe starting up that project again, and kudos with the audio drama. Bike and swim as MUCH as humanly possible, as well as go down to West Virginia/Virginia for some Whitewater rafting fun and ziplining before it's too late.
Then go back to school. Proceed to continue blogging. Check up on the four things I auditioned for, see if I got into any of them. Get bored of blogging. Talk with Marinda about comic and being a voice actor in her series. Do homework. Play zombie tag. Get into BCT or Xenia theatre production. Halloween. Watch Beware the Batman. Continue Blogging. Possibly release a comic or see a voice role get released (possibly for pay). Christmas. New Years. The year starts all over again.
